Healing injuries and transforming burbo masks. Character: Detachment from the material. The pursuit of excellence. Intelligence. Transitions through stages of great love to periods of deep hatred. He does not believe in his right to exist. Injury

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We are talking about five traumas, namely the trauma of the rejected, abandoned, humiliated, betrayal and injustice. We are all born with several traumas, but they are experienced in different ways, with different intensities. Injuries originated in a previous life and are present in our new life because we have not learned to heal and accept them.

So, we can conclude that, for example, the trauma of the rejected originates in a situation where a person rejects another person and does not accept himself in this situation. This experience of rejection is associated with rejection of oneself, which becomes a vicious circle: I reject myself, I reject others, and others also reject me .... All of this is to help me realize that I am denying myself. And so it is for every trauma of the soul. Trauma occurs immediately as soon as a person ceases to accept himself, just as many wounds, injuries or diseases can suddenly appear in the human body. If a person does not deal with the healing of this injury, it becomes more and more dangerous and, at the slightest touch, it will hurt more and more. Therefore, only we ourselves should personally realize the importance of healing our own soul traumas in order to create a completely different quality of our life.

All the troubles, problems, stresses that happen to us can be associated with one of the traumas of the soul. Difficulties can be mental (anxiety, fears, etc.), emotional (guilt, emotion, anger, etc.) or physical (illness, illness, accidents, etc.).

From the moment a child is conceived, traumas begin to be activated by the parents or those who have played the role of parents. So it's important to remember that we don't suffer trauma because of our parents, but rather because we needed these parents, with their own traumas, so that we could recognize our own traumas and begin the process of healing them.

As soon as one of the five traumas is active and we do not accept it, our reactions are instantaneous. It looks like someone is touching an open wound on your body, it gives you pain and you overreact to the touch. Your reaction depends on how serious your wound is. The more painful the wound, the sharper and faster your reaction. Speaking of trauma, I refer to these reactions as "mask-wearing." Why? Because we are in pain, and if we do not understand our responsibility, we blame other people for hurting us (or we blame ourselves for feeling pain), and we cease to be ourselves. To take responsibility is to feel the pain and injury and to realize that the other person did not hurt us, but that the suffering arose because we had not yet dealt with the healing of the injury.

For example, someone steps on your injured and swollen toe. Of course, you react: you are more likely to say something unpleasant, push the person away, or even hurt him yourself. Of course, this reaction is natural. But think about it: if your toe was healthy and someone stepped on your foot, you probably wouldn't have this reaction. And this means that if we react too sharply to some events or people, we cease to be ourselves. And that's why we call reactions masks. Each injury has its own mask and its own reactions.

You can read a full description of the five traumas of the soul and the masks associated with them in the book Five Traumas That Prevent You from Being Yourself. Recognizing masks and injuries is not difficult if you just look closely at the structure of your body. The more characteristics of a particular injury present in your body, the stronger that particular injury of yours.

How to heal from traumas of the soul?

The first step in healing from trauma is to accept and observe yourself when your trauma is active and you feel pain. You may feel rejected, for example, or abandoned, but not wearing an appropriate mask. At such moments, all you need to do is tell yourself that you are feeling rejected right now, and observe your thoughts, feelings, and the location of pain in the physical body. You will see how wonderfully simple self-observation works! Just watching is enough to ease the pain and make you feel much better. Your breathing becomes even and the pain goes away. This observation technique is also called acceptance.

Another step in healing from trauma is accepting that ALL people, without exception, are born with trauma. The more you give yourself permission to experience trauma, the more compassion and tolerance you will have for other people. You will not be acutely aware of the moments when other people put on masks or react emotionally. So, the more you watch yourself, the easier it will be for you to watch others, without judgment or blame.

A great effective way to heal from soul trauma is to be very mindful of your relationships with other people. As soon as you find yourself reacting to other people in pain, out of trauma, take a deep breath and ask yourself, “if I listened to my needs, what would I do now?”.

Take, for example, a woman who is tired after a day's work. She sees that her son (or husband) wants her attention. She would like to be alone and rest. However, due to the trauma of the abandoned one, she fears that if she does so, her son or husband will feel abandoned. Most likely, she will not tell anyone about her desire, and will make every effort to give due attention. If so, then her injury won, and she herself put on a mask.

Gradually, as you heal from trauma, you will become who and what you want to be: the fugitive will learn to assert himself and take his rightful place; the addict will be happy to be alone, will be able to ask for help only if necessary, and not in order to attract attention; the masochist will manifest his sensuality without guilt or shame, listening and satisfying his needs before others. The controller will remain a leader and leader, but will not seek to control and suppress everyone, using lies and manipulation; the rigid one will find his natural sensuality and give himself the right to be imperfect.

And this is only a small part of the wonderful changes that you will see in your life as you begin to heal from soul traumas. And your surroundings will also be pleasantly surprised as you begin to change before our eyes! There is only one thing left for you now: to make the decision to start healing from soul traumas right now, without waiting for other people to change instead of you. Only in this way can you get a better quality of life, and this will only happen thanks to a unique tool - acceptance that heals everything!

Characteristics of a rejected person's injury:
Awakening trauma: from the moment of conception to one year; with same-sex parent. Does not feel the right to exist.

Mask: fugitive.

Parent: Same gender.

Body: compressed, narrow, fragile, fragmented.

Eyes: small, with an expression of fear; impression of a mask around the eyes.

Dictionary: "nothing", "no one", "does not exist", "disappear", "I'm sick of...".

Character: Detachment from the material. The pursuit of excellence. Intelligence. Transitions through stages of great love to periods of deep hatred. He does not believe in his right to exist.

Sexual difficulties. He considers himself useless, worthless. Strives for privacy. Stewed. Knows how to be invisible. Finds a variety of ways to escape. It is easy to go to the astral plane. He thinks he is not understood. Can't let her inner child live in peace.

Most afraid of: panic.

Food: Appetite often disappears due to the influx of emotions or fear. Eats small portions. Sugar, alcohol and drugs as escape routes. predisposition to anorexia.

Typical diseases: Skin, diarrhea, arrhythmia, respiratory dysfunction, allergies, vomiting, fainting, coma, hypoglycemia, diabetes, depression, suicidal tendencies, psychosis.

Runaway Diseases:

Among other diseases characteristic of the fugitive, we also see disorders respiratory functions, especially during a panic.

The fugitive is exposed allergies- this is a reflection of the rejection that he has experienced or is experiencing in relation to certain foods or substances.

He can choose and vomit as an indication of his distaste for a particular person or situation. I even heard such statements from teenagers: “I want to vomit my mother (or father).” It is not uncommon for a fugitive to want to "vomit up" a situation or a hateful person and may express their feelings by saying, "That's a sickening person" or "Your talk makes me sick." All of these are ways to express your desire to reject someone or something.

Dizziness or fainting- also suitable means if you really want to avoid a situation or a person.

In serious cases, the fugitive is saved coma.

A fugitive suffering agoraphobia, uses this disorder when he wants to avoid certain situations and people that can cause him to panic (more on this behavioral disorder in Chapter 3).

If a fugitive abuses sugar, he can provoke pancreatic diseases such as hypoglycemia or diabetes.

If he has accumulated too much hatred for the parent as a result of the suffering experienced and experienced by him as a rejected being, and if he has reached his emotional and mental limit, then he may develop depressive or manic-depressive condition. If he contemplates suicide, he does not speak of it, and when he proceeds to action, he provides for everything so as not to fail. Those who often talk about suicide and are usually mistaken when they go into action belong rather to the category of the abandoned; they will be discussed in the next chapter.

Since childhood, it is difficult for a fugitive to recognize himself as a full-fledged human being, therefore he strives to be like a hero or heroine he adores, he is ready to get lost, to dissolve in his idol - for example, a young girl longs to be Marilyn Monroe; this lasts until she decides to be someone else.

The danger of such a deviation in behavior is that over time it can turn into psychosis.

The structure of the schizoid character.

Description

The term "schizoid" comes from "schizophrenia" and means a person who has a predisposition to the schizophrenic condition. This includes the splitting of the personality as a whole, for example, thinking is separated from feelings. What a person thinks seems to have little apparent connection with how he feels or behaves; withdrawing into oneself, breaking or losing contact with the world or with external reality. The schizoid individual is not a schizophrenic and may never become one, but the predisposition to this disease is present in his personality, usually well compensated.

The term schizoid describes a person whose sense of self is diminished, whose ego is weak and whose contact with the body and with the senses is severely weakened.

Bioenergetic conditions

Energy is withdrawn from the peripheral structures of the body, namely from those parts through which the body contacts the outside world: the face, hands, genitals and legs. They are not fully energetically connected with the center, i.e., excitation from the center does not flow freely to them, but is blocked by chronic muscle tension at the base of the head, shoulders, pelvis and hip joints. Consequently, the functions performed by them are separated from the feelings in the human heart.

The internal charge is prone to "freezing" in the region of the center. As a result, a weak impulse is formed. However, the charge is explosive (due to its pressure) and can break out in the form of violence or murder. This happens when the defenses can no longer hold back and the body is overwhelmed with a huge amount of energy that it cannot handle. The personality is divided into many parts, as a result of which a schizophrenic state develops.

The defense consists of a pattern of muscular tensions that, together, continuously hold the personality, preventing the peripheral structures from being filled with feelings and energy. Muscular tensions, such as those described above, are responsible for disconnecting the peripheral organs from contact with the center.

Thus, protection is problematic. In the waist area there is an energy splitting of the body, and as a result of this - the disintegration of the integrity of the upper and lower halves of the body. Bioenergetic analysis is shown in the diagram.

Physical aspects

In most cases, patients with these features have a narrow and constricted body. Where there are paranoid elements in the personality, the body is fuller and more athletic.

The main areas of tension are at the base of the skull, in the joints of the shoulders, legs, pelvis and in the area of the diaphragm. The latter is usually so powerful that it divides the body into two parts. The main contractions are concentrated in the small muscles that surround the joints. Therefore, in this type of character, one can observe either extreme rigidity or superflexibility of the joints.

The face is mask-like. The eyes, although not empty, as in schizophrenia, are lifeless and do not make contact. The arms hang, more like extensions than extensions of the body. Feet tense and cold; they are often everted; body weight is transferred to the outside of the foot.

There is often a noticeable disparity between the two halves of the body. In many cases, they do not appear to belong to the same person.

For example, under stress, when a person assumes an arc position, the line of his body often seems to be broken. The head, torso and legs are often at an angle to each other.

Psychological ratios

The person does not feel whole /14/. The tendency to disunity, which occurs at the bodily level due to insufficient energy connection between the head and body, leads to a split personality. So, you can find a pose of arrogance combined with humiliation or a virgin who feels like a whore. In the latter case, the body is, as it were, divided into two parts - upper and lower.

In the schizoid character, hypersensitivity is found due to a weak ego boundary, which is a psychological counterpart of a lack of peripheral charge. This weakness reduces the ego's resistance to external pressure and forces it into self-defence.

Such people avoid close, sensual relationships. In fact, it is very difficult for them to establish such relationships because of the lack of energy in the peripheral structures.

The desire to always motivate actions gives schizoid behavior a shade of insincerity. This has been called “as if” behavior, i.e. it seems to be based on feelings, but the actions themselves are not an expression of feelings.

Etiological and historical factors

Here it seems important to give some data on the origin of this structure. These are the summarized observations of those who have studied this problem, treated and analyzed patients with such disorders.

In all cases, there is clear evidence that patients were rejected by their mother at an early age, and this was perceived by them as an existential threat. The rejection was accompanied by covert and often overt hostility on her part.

Rejection and hostility have developed in the patient the fear that any attempts at contact, demands or self-assertion will lead to the destruction of himself.

From childhood comes a lack of any strong positive feelings of security or joy, frequent nightmares.

Typical for such patients is both isolated and unemotional behavior with occasional outbursts of rage, which is called autistic.

If either parent intervened repeatedly in the child's life during the oedipal period (for example, for sexual reasons), which is very common, then a paranoid element was added to the main symptom. This made possible some activity at the end of childhood or in adulthood.

In all this, the child has no choice but to separate himself from reality (intense imagination life) and from his body (abstract mind) in order to survive. Due to the fact that his main feelings were horror and deadly rage, the child was fenced off from all feelings by self-defense.
By voice:

The fugitive has a weak, powerless voice.

Dance style:

The fugitive doesn't like dancing. If he dances, then his movements are minimal and inexpressive, he does not want to be noticed. It seems to say on it: "Do not look at me for a long time."

Vehicle selection:

· The fugitive likes inconspicuous cars of a soft color.

Sitting posture:

· The fugitive shrinks, trying to take up as little space as possible in the chair. He likes to tuck his legs under him very much: when he is not connected to the ground, it is easier to run away.

Fears:

· The fugitive is most afraid of panic. He can't really realize it because he hides, disappears as soon as he starts to panic, or even before it starts. Others see panic without difficulty - his eyes almost always betray him.

Injuries by gender:

· The trauma of being rejected is experienced with a same-sex parent. That is, the fugitive feels rejected by persons of the same sex as himself. He accuses them of rejecting him and is more angry with them than with himself. On the other hand, when he is rejected by a person of the opposite sex, he rejects himself even more. Accordingly, in this case, his anger at himself dominates. At the same time, there is a high probability that this person of the opposite sex did not reject him, but left him.

Injury Healing:

your injury rejected close to healing if you gradually take up more and more space, if you begin to assert yourself. And if someone pretends that you are not there, it does not unsettle you. There are fewer and fewer situations in which you are afraid to panic.

Liz Burbo

October 17, 2005 | Visitors: 223117

Let's look in the dictionaries what the words "reject", "rejected" mean. Dictionaries give several synonymous definitions: push away; remove, refuse; not tolerate; to not allow; expose.

Often people find it difficult to grasp the difference between the two concepts - "reject" and "leave". To leave someone means to move away from him for the sake of someone or something else. To reject means to push away, not to want to see next to you and in your life. The rejecter uses the expression, "I don't want to," and the one who leaves says, "I can't."

Being rejected is a very deep trauma; the rejected feels it as a renunciation of his very essence, as a denial of his right to exist. Of all five traumas, the feeling of being rejected appears first, which means that the cause of such a trauma in the life of a person appears earlier than others. The soul that returns to Earth to heal this trauma is rejected from the very moment of birth, and in many cases even earlier.

A suitable example is an unwanted child who was born by chance. "If the soul of this baby did not cope with the experience of being rejected, that is, it could not remain itself and be in prosperity, despite rejection, then it will inevitably experience the state of the rejected. A striking case is - there are many other reasons why a parent rejects their child, but it is very important for us to understand here that only those souls who need to experience the rejected experience are attracted to a parent or parents of a certain type: these parents will inevitably reject their child .

It often happens that a parent has no intention of rejecting a child, yet the child feels rejected for every, even petty, reason - after an offensive remark, or when one of the parents experiences anger, impatience, etc. If the wound is not healed, it is very easy to open it up. A person who feels rejected is biased. He interprets all events through the filters of his trauma, and the feeling of being rejected only intensifies, although perhaps not true.

From the day the baby feels rejected, it begins to develop a mask Fugitive. Many times I had to observe and treat regressions to the embryonic state, and I became convinced that a person with the trauma of being rejected while still in the womb feels very small, tries to take up as little space as possible, and also constantly has a feeling of darkness, gloom. This confirmed my hunch that the fugitive mask may begin to form even before birth.

I ask you to note that from now until the end of the book I will use the term "fugitive" to refer to a person suffering from a rejection complex. The mask of the fugitive is another, new personality, a character that develops as a means of evading the suffering of the rejected.

This mask manifests itself physically in the form of an elusive physique, that is, a body (or body part) that seems to want to disappear. Narrow, compressed, it seems to be specially designed so that it is easier to slip away, take up less space, not be visible among others. This body does not want to take up much space, it takes on the image of running away, escaping, and all its life it strives to take up as little space as possible. When one sees a person who looks like an incorporeal ghost - "skin and bones" - one can expect with a high degree of certainty that he is suffering from a deep trauma of a rejected being.

A fugitive is a person who doubts his right to exist; it even seems that it is not fully embodied. Therefore, her body gives the impression of an unfinished, incomplete, consisting of fragments poorly fitted to each other. The left side of the face, for example, may differ markedly from the right, and this can be seen with the naked eye, there is no need to check with a ruler. Remember, by the way, how many people have you seen with perfectly symmetrical sides of the body?

When I talk about an "incomplete" body, I mean those parts of the body where whole pieces seem to be missing (buttocks, chest, chin, ankles are much smaller than calves, hollows in the back, chest, abdomen, etc. ).

Seeing how such a person holds himself (shoulders are shifted forward, hands are usually pressed to the body, etc.), we say that his body is twisted. It seems that something is blocking the growth of the body or its individual parts; or as if some parts of the body differ from others in age; and some people even look like adults in a child's body.

A deformed body that evokes pity speaks eloquently of the fact that this person carries within himself the trauma of the rejected. Before being born, his soul chose this body of its own to place itself in a situation conducive to overcoming this trauma.

A characteristic feature of the fugitive is a small face and eyes. The eyes appear empty or absent, because a person with such an injury tends to go into his world or "fly to the moon" (astral) at any opportunity. Often these eyes are filled with fear. Watching the face of a fugitive, you can literally feel the mask on him, especially in front of his eyes. He himself often imagines that he is looking at the world through a mask. Some fugitives confessed to me that the feeling of a mask on their face sometimes does not go away for a whole day, while for others it lasts for several minutes. It doesn't really matter how long it lasts; the important thing is that this is their way of not being present in what is happening around.

Not to be present, so as not to suffer.

The presence of all of these signs indicates that the trauma of the rejected person is very deep, much deeper than in a person with a single sign - for example, only the eyes of a fugitive. If the body has, say, half of the signs of a fugitive, then we can assume that this person wears a protective mask not all the time, but about half. This may refer, for example, to a person with a fairly large body but a small face and small eyes of a fugitive, or to a person with a large body and very short ankles. If not all the signs of the rejected are observed, then the trauma is not so deep.

Wearing a mask is not being yourself. Even in childhood, we develop a behavior that is not our own, believing that it will protect us. The first reaction of a human being who feels rejected is a desire to run away, slip away, disappear. The child who feels rejected and creates a runaway mask usually lives in an imaginary world. For this reason, he is most often intelligent, prudent, quiet and does not cause problems.

Alone, he amuses himself with his imaginary world and builds castles in the air. He may even believe that his parents are not real, that they mixed up newborns in the hospital. Such children invent many ways to run away from home; one of them is an expressed desire to go to school. However, having come to school and feeling rejected there too (or rejecting themselves), they go to their own world, "to the moon". One woman told me that she felt like a "tourist" at school.

On the other hand, a child of such a warehouse wants to be noticed, although he is not sure of his right to exist. I remember one girl who hid behind a closet at the very moment when her parents were meeting guests at the doorstep of the house. When they noticed that the child was gone, everyone rushed to look for her. She did not leave her shelter, although she heard well how the anxiety of adults was growing. She said to herself: "I want them to find me. I want them to understand that I exist." This girl was so unsure of her right to exist that she arranged situations that could confirm this right.

Since the size of the body of such a child is less than average and it often resembles a doll or some kind of fragile and defenseless creature, the mother takes care of him unnecessarily; and he gets used to the fact that everyone constantly says: he is too small for this, he is too weak for that, etc. The child begins to believe in it so much that his body really becomes small. For this reason, "to be loved" means something suffocating to him. Afterwards, when someone loves him, his first impulse will be to reject this love or run away, because the fear of suffocation will still nest in him. An overprotective child feels rejected, feels that he is not accepted for who he is. Trying to somehow compensate for his smallness and fragility, relatives try to do everything and even think for him; but even then, instead of feeling loved, the child feels rejected in his abilities.

The fugitive prefers not to be attached to material things, because they can prevent him from running away when and where he pleases. It seems as if he really looks at everything material from the top down. He asks himself what he is doing on this planet; it is very hard for him to believe that he can be happy here. He is especially attracted to everything that is connected with the spirit, as well as the intellectual world. He rarely uses material things for pleasure, believing such pleasure to be superficial. One young woman told me that she didn't like going to the shops. She does it just to feel alive. The fugitive admits that money is needed, but it does not bring him joy.

The detachment of the fugitive from material things causes difficulties in his sexual life. He is ready to believe that sexuality is contrary to spirituality. Many runaway women have told me that they consider sex to be unspiritual, especially after they become mothers. Some even managed to set the spouse in such a way that he did not want physical intimacy with them throughout the entire period of pregnancy.

It can be very difficult for fugitives to understand that they can and have the same sexual needs as any normal person. They gravitate towards situations in which they find themselves rejected sexually - or deny themselves a sexual life.

The trauma of rejection is experienced with a same-sex parent.

If you recognize yourself in the description of a person who feels rejected, it means that you experienced the same feeling towards a parent of the same sex as you. It is this parent who is the first to open an already existing wound. And then rejection and dislike towards this parent, up to hatred, become quite normal and human.

The role of a same-sex parent is to teach us to love—to love ourselves and give love. The parent of the opposite sex must teach them to allow themselves to be loved and to receive love.

By not accepting the parent, we just as naturally decide not to use it as a model. If you see that this is also your injury, then know that it is precisely this rejection that explains your difficulties: being of the same sex with an unloved parent, you cannot accept yourself and love yourself.

The fugitive does not believe in his worth, he does not put himself in anything. And for this reason, he uses all means to become perfect and acquire value both in his own eyes and in the eyes of others. The word "NOBODY" is a favorite in his vocabulary, and he applies it with equal success to himself and to others:

"My boss said I was nobody, I had to leave."
"In economic matters, my mother is nobody."
"My father is just a nobody in a relationship with my mother. So was my husband; I do not blame him for leaving me."

In Quebec, they prefer the word "NOTHING":

"I know that I am nothing, others are more interesting than me."
"No matter what I do, it does not give anything, anyway, every time I have to start over."
"I'm nothing, nothing... do as you please."

One runaway male confessed at a seminar that he felt like a nonentity and a bum in front of his father. "When he speaks to me, I am crushed. If I am able to think, then only about how to escape from him; where do all my arguments and self-control go. His mere presence oppresses me." A runaway woman told me how, at the age of sixteen, she decided that from now on her mother was nothing to her after her mother said that it would be better if she did not have such a daughter, it would be better if she disappeared, even if she died. Avoiding suffering, the daughter has since withdrawn completely from her mother.

It is interesting to note that the flight of a child who feels rejected is predominantly encouraged by a parent of the same sex with him. Most often in stories about children leaving home, I have to hear the parent's phrase: "Are you leaving? Very good, it will become freer here." The child, of course, feels his rejection even more painfully and is even more angry with the parent. This kind of situation easily arises with a parent who himself suffers from the same trauma. He encourages withdrawal, because this means is familiar to him, even if he does not realize it.

A prominent place in the dictionary of the fugitive is also occupied by the words "does not exist", "non-existent". For example, to the questions: "How are you with sex" or "What is your relationship with such and such a person?" he replies, "They don't exist," while most people will simply reply that things aren't going well or that the relationship isn't working out.

The fugitive also likes the words to disappear, disappear. He may say, "My father treats my mother like a prostitute... I wish I could disappear" or "I wish my parents were gone!"

The fugitive seeks loneliness, solitude, because he is afraid of the attention of others - he does not know how to behave at the same time, it seems to him that his existence is too noticeable. And in the family, and in any group of people, he is stewed. He believes that he must endure the most unpleasant situations to the end, as if he has no right to fight back; in any case, he sees no options for salvation. Here's an example: a girl asks her mother to help her with her homework and hears in response: "Go to your father. Can't you see that I'm busy and he has nothing to do?" The first reaction of the rejected child will be the thought: "Well, again, I was not polite enough, and therefore my mother refused to help me," and then the girl will go to look for a quiet corner where she can hide from everyone.

The runaway usually has very few friends at school and later at work. He is considered closed and left alone. The more he isolates himself, the more invisible he seems. He falls into a vicious circle: feeling rejected, he puts on a fugitive mask so as not to suffer; he is so obscured that others stop noticing him; he becomes increasingly lonely, which gives him even more reason to feel rejected.

And now I will describe to you a situation that was repeated many times at the very end of my seminars, at the moment when everyone tells how the seminar helped him. With great surprise, I discover the presence of a personality that I did not notice during the two-day seminar! I ask myself, "But where has she been hiding all this time?" Then I see that she has the body of a fugitive, that she has arranged herself so as not to speak or ask questions during the entire seminar, and that she has been sitting behind the others all the time, trying not to be seen. When I tell such participants that they are overly shy, they almost invariably reply that they have nothing interesting to say, so they didn't speak.

Indeed, the fugitive usually says little. Sometimes he can talk, and talks a lot - he tries to assert his importance; in this case, others see pride in his statements.

A fugitive often develops a SKIN PROBLEM to not be touched. The skin is a contact organ, its appearance can attract or repel another person. Skin disease is an unconscious way to protect yourself from being touched, especially in those places that are associated with the problem. More than once I heard from fugitives: "When they touch me, I have the impression that I am being pulled out of my cocoon." The wound of the rejected hurts and makes him eventually believe that if he goes to his own world, he will no longer suffer, because he himself will not reject himself, and others will not be able to reject him. Therefore, he often evades participation in group work, stews. He hides in his cocoon.

Therefore, the fugitive easily and willingly goes on astral journeys: unfortunately, these journeys are more often made unconsciously. He may even think that this is a common occurrence and that others are there as often as he is. In thoughts and ideas the fugitive is constantly scattered; sometimes you can hear from him: "I need to collect myself" - it seems to him that he consists of separate pieces. This impression is especially characteristic of those whose body resembles a construction of disparate parts. More than once I heard from fugitives: "I feel like I'm cut off from other people. Like I'm not here." Some have told me that they sometimes distinctly feel their body splitting in half - as if an invisible thread were cutting it at the waist. At one of my acquaintances, this thread divided her body at chest level. As a result of the release technique I teach in one of my workshops, she felt that her upper and lower parts of her body were connected, and was very surprised by the new sensation. This helped her understand that she had not truly been in her body since childhood. She never knew what "being tied to the ground" meant.

In seminars, I notice runaways, mostly women, who like to sit cross-legged in a chair; they seem to be more comfortable sitting on the ground. But, since they hardly touch the ground, it is not difficult for them to slip away. But they pay money to attend our classes, and this fact confirms their intention - or at least the desire of some part of them - to be here, although it is very difficult for them to concentrate, "collect themselves". So I tell them that they have a choice - go to the astral plane and miss what's going on here, or stay anchored to their place and be present in the present.

As I said above, the fugitive does not feel any acceptance or goodwill from the parent of the same sex with him. This does not necessarily mean that the parent rejects it. This is his, the fugitive, a personal feeling. The same soul could come to Earth in order to overcome the trauma of humiliation, and incarnate with the same parents with exactly the same attitude towards their child. On the other hand, it goes without saying that the fugitive tends to experience the rejection experience more than any other person—say, a brother or sister—who does not have this trauma.

A person experiencing the suffering of a rejected person is constantly looking for the love of a parent of the same sex with him; he may also transfer his search to other persons of the same sex. He will consider himself an incomplete being until he wins the love of a parent. He is very sensitive to the slightest remarks from this parent and is always ready to decide that he is rejected. Bitterness and anger gradually develop in him, often turning into hatred - so great is his suffering. Don't forget that it takes a lot of love to hate. Hate is a strong but disappointed love. The wound of the rejected is so deep that of all five characters, the runaway is the most prone to hatred. He easily bypasses the stage of great love in order to give himself up to great hatred. This is an indicator of the strongest internal suffering.

As for the parent of the opposite sex, the fugitive himself is afraid to reject him and in every possible way restrains himself in his actions and statements in relation to him. Due to his injury, he cannot be himself. He resorts to various tricks and precautions so as not to reject this parent - he does not want to be accused of rejecting anyone himself. On the other hand, he wants the parent of the same sex to curry favor with him - this allows him not to feel his rejection so sharply. He does not want to see that his sufferings of the rejected one are due to internal unresolved trauma, and the parent has nothing to do with it. If the fugitive experiences the experience of being rejected by a parent (or other person) of the opposite sex, then he blames himself for this and rejects himself.

If you see the trauma of the rejected in yourself, then for you, even if your parent really rejects you, it is very important to understand and accept the following thought: "it is precisely because your trauma is not healed that you attract a certain type of situation and a certain parent." As long as you believe that all your misfortunes are the fault of other people, your injury cannot be healed. As a consequence of your reaction to your own parents, you will very easily feel rejected by other people of your gender, and you will always be afraid of rejecting a person of the opposite sex yourself.

The deeper the trauma of the rejected, the stronger he attracts to himself the circumstances in which he is rejected or himself rejects.

The more the fugitive rejects himself, the greater his fear of rejection. He constantly humiliates and underestimates himself. He often compares himself to those who are stronger than him in some way, and thus develops a belief in his own inferiority. He does not notice that in some areas he can surpass other people. He will not believe in any way that someone would like to make friends with him, that someone sees him as a spouse, that they can truly love him. One mother told me about her children: they tell her that they love her, but she does not understand why they love her!

Everything develops in such a way that the fugitive constantly lives in an uncertain state: if he is elected, he does not believe in it and rejects himself - sometimes to such an extent that, in fact, he provokes the situation; if he is not elected, he feels rejected by others. One young man from a large family told me that his father never entrusted him with anything, from which the child made a categorical conclusion that all other children are better than him. And it is not surprising that now the father always chooses one of them. A vicious circle has formed.

The fugitive often says (or thinks) that all his deeds and thoughts are worthless. When attention is paid to him, he gets lost, he begins to think that he takes up too much space. If it takes up a lot of space, it seems to him that he is disturbing someone, which means that he will be rejected by those who are disturbed. Even in the womb, the fugitive does not take up extra space. He is doomed to keep quiet until his injury is healed.

When he is talking and someone interrupts him, he instantly takes it as proof that he is not worth listening to, and habitually falls silent. A person who is not weighed down by the trauma of the rejected person, in this case, also concludes that his statement turned out to be uninteresting - but not himself! It is equally difficult for a fugitive to express his opinion when he is not asked: it seems to him that the interlocutors will see this as a confrontation and reject him.

If he has a question or a request for someone, but this person is busy, then he will not say anything. He knows what he wants, but he does not dare to ask for it, believing that it is not important enough to bother others.

Many women say that even in adolescence they stopped trusting their mother for fear of not being understood. They believe that being understood means being loved. Meanwhile, one has nothing to do with the other. To love is to accept another, even if you do not understand him. Because of this belief, they become evasive in conversation. And it turns out that they are always trying to get away from the subject of discussion, but are afraid to start another. Of course, they behave this way not only with their mother, but also with other women. If the fugitive is a man, then his relationship with his father and other men is exactly the same.

Another distinctive feature of the fugitive is the desire for perfection in everything he does: he believes that if he makes a mistake, he will be condemned, and to be condemned for him is the same as being rejected. Since he does not believe in his own perfection, he tries to compensate for this by the perfection of what he does. He, unfortunately, confuses "to be" and "to do". The search for perfection can reach the point of obsession with him. He so passionately desires to do everything flawlessly that any work takes him an unreasonably long time. And in the end, it is because of this that he is rejected.

Reaching its limit, the fugitive's fear turns into panic. At the mere thought of the possibility of panic, he first of all looks for where to hide, run away, disappear. He would rather disappear, because he knows that in a state of panic he will not budge at all. He believes that by hiding somewhere, he will avoid trouble. He is so convinced of his inability to deal with panic that he eventually succumbs to it very easily, even when there is no reason for it. The desire to hide, to disappear is deeply characteristic of fugitives; I have often seen cases of regression to the embryonic state. Such people said that they wanted to hide in their mother's stomach - another indication of how early this begins.

By attracting to himself, like a magnet, people and situations that he is afraid of, the fugitive in the same way provokes circumstances in which he has a panic. His fear, of course, further dramatizes what is happening. He always finds any explanation for his flight or evasion.

The fugitive is especially easy to panic and numb with fear in the presence of a parent or other people of the same sex (especially if they somehow resemble this parent). With a parent and with other people of the opposite sex, he does not experience this fear, it is much easier for him to communicate with them. I also noticed that in the vocabulary of the fugitive the word "panic" occurs quite often. He might say, for example, "I get panicky at the thought of quitting smoking." Usually a person will simply say that it is difficult for him to quit smoking.

Our ego does everything it can to keep us from noticing our injuries. Why? Because we ourselves gave him this mandate. Unconsciously. We are so afraid to relive the pain associated with each injury that we use all means to avoid admitting to ourselves that we are experiencing the suffering of a rejected being because of the fact that we reject ourselves. And those who reject us have come into our lives to show us how much we reject ourselves.

Fear of his own panic in many situations leads the fugitive to the fact that he loses his memory. He may even think that he has a memory problem, but in fact he has a problem with fear. During the seminars on the course "Become a mass entertainer" I have repeatedly observed the following picture: one of the participants, a fugitive, must speak to the others and tell something or hold a mini-conference; but even when he is well prepared and knows his material, fear at the last minute builds up to such a level that everything flies out of the speaker's head. Sometimes he just leaves his body, and it freezes in front of us, as if paralyzed, like a sleepwalker. Fortunately, this problem is gradually being solved as he gets over his rejection trauma.

It is interesting to see how our traumas affect our relationship with food. A person feeds his physical body in the same way as the mental and emotional. The fugitive prefers small portions; he often loses his appetite when he experiences bouts of fear or other strong emotions. Of all the listed types, the runaway is the most prone to anorexia: he almost completely refuses food, because he seems to himself too big and plump, although in reality the opposite is true. Weight loss below normal, exhaustion - this is his attempt to disappear. Sometimes appetite wins, and then the fugitive greedily pounces on food - this is also an attempt to disappear, to dissolve in food. However, this method is rarely used by fugitives; more often they are attracted to alcohol or drugs.

Runaways have a weakness for sweets, especially when they are overcome by intense fear. Since fear robs a person of energy, it is natural to assume that introducing sugar into the body can make up for the loss. Indeed, sugar gives energy, but, unfortunately, not for long, so you have to replenish it in this way too often.

Our traumas keep us from being ourselves; Because of this, blocks occur in the body and, as a result, diseases. Each type of character has its own special ailments and illnesses, determined by its internal mental structure.

Here are some typical illnesses and ailments for a fugitive.

He often suffers from DIARRHEA - he rejects, throws away food before the body has time to assimilate the nutrients, just like he rejects a situation that could be beneficial for him.
Many suffer from ARRYTHMIA - an irregular heart rhythm. When the heart begins to beat like crazy, they have a feeling that it wants to escape from the chest, fly away; this is another form of wanting to avoid a painful situation.
I have said before that the wound of the rejected is so painful that the runaway quite logically develops hatred for the parent of the same sex, whom he, as a child, condemned for causing him suffering. However, the fugitive cannot forgive himself for hating his parent and prefers not to think and not to know about the existence of this hatred. Without giving himself the right to hate a parent of the same sex, he can bring himself to the disease of CANCER: this disease is associated with bitterness, anger, hatred - with mental pain experienced in loneliness. If a person manages to come to a confession that he hated or hates a parent, there will be no cancer. He may develop an acute illness if he continues to harbor designs that are hostile to that parent, but it will not be cancer. Cancer manifests itself most often in someone who has suffered a lot, but blames only himself for this. To agree that you hate your father or mother is really difficult, because it means admitting that you are evil and heartless; it also means acknowledging that you are rejecting the parent you yourself accused of rejecting you. The fugitive does not give himself the right to be a child. He forces maturation, believing that this way he will suffer less from his trauma. For this reason, his body (or some part of it) resembles the body of a child. Cancer disease indicates that he did not give the child in himself the right to suffer. He did not accept what is humanly fair - to hate the parent, whom you consider the culprit of your suffering.
Among other illnesses characteristic of the fugitive, we also see RESPIRATORY DISORDERS, especially during panic.
The Runaway is ALLERGIC - a reflection of the aversion he has experienced or is experiencing in relation to certain foods or substances.
He may also choose to vomit as an indicator of his disgust for a particular person or situation. I even heard such statements from teenagers: "I want to vomit my mother (or father)". It is not uncommon for a fugitive to want to "vomit up" a situation or a hateful person, and may express their feelings by saying, "That's a sickening person" or "Your talk makes me sick." All of these are ways to express your desire to reject someone or something.
VERTIGO or FAUNTE are also suitable remedies if you really want to avoid a situation or a person.
In serious cases, the fugitive is saved by the COMA.
The AGORAPHOBIC fugitive uses this disorder when he wants to avoid certain situations and people that might cause him to panic (more on this behavioral disorder in Chapter 3).
If a fugitive abuses sugar, he can provoke such diseases of the pancreas as HYPOGLYCEMIA or DIABETES.
If he has accumulated too much hatred for the parent as a result of the suffering experienced and experienced by him as a rejected being, and if he has reached his emotional and mental limit, then he may develop a DEPRESSIVE or MANIC-DEPRESSIVE state. If he contemplates suicide, he does not speak of it, and when he proceeds to action, he provides for everything so as not to fail. Those who often talk about suicide and are usually mistaken when they go into action belong rather to the category of the abandoned; they will be discussed in the next chapter.
Since childhood, it is difficult for a fugitive to recognize himself as a full-fledged human being, therefore he strives to be like a hero or heroine he adores, he is ready to get lost, to dissolve in his idol - for example, a young girl longs to be Marilyn Monroe; this lasts until she decides to be someone else. The danger of such a deviation in behavior lies in the fact that over time it can turn into PSYCHOSIS.

The illnesses and ailments listed above are possible in people with other types of trauma, but still most common in those who feel rejected.

If you find yourself traumatized by being rejected, it is more than likely that your same-sex parent also feels rejected by their same-sex parent; moreover, it is very likely that he feels rejected by you as well. This may not be realized by either side, but it is nevertheless true and confirmed by thousands of fugitives.

Remember: the main reason for the existence of any injury is the inability to forgive yourself for the wound inflicted on yourself or other people. Forgiving ourselves is very difficult because, as a rule, we do not even know that we are judging ourselves. The deeper your rejection wound, the more unmistakably it indicates that you are rejecting yourself - or rejecting other people, situations and projects.

We blame others for things we don't want to see in ourselves..

That is why we attract those people who show us how we behave with others or with ourselves.

Shame is another means of becoming aware that we are rejecting ourselves or rejecting another person. Indeed, we experience a sense of shame when we want to hide or hide our behavior. It is normal to find shameful behavior for which we blame others. We really don't want them to find out that we are behaving the same way.

Remember, all of the above is experienced only if the suffering rejected person chooses to wear the mask of a fugitive, believing that by doing so he will avoid suffering in proportion to the depth of the trauma. He wears this mask in some cases for several minutes a week, in others almost constantly.

The behavior characteristic of the fugitive is dictated by the fear of repeating the suffering of the rejected. But it may also be that you recognize yourself in some of the behaviors described above, but not in all. A complete match of all characteristics is almost impossible. Each trauma has its own forms of behavior and internal states. How a person thinks, feels, speaks and acts (in accordance with his traumas) determines his reaction to everything that happens in life. A person in a state of reaction cannot be balanced, cannot be focused in his heart, cannot experience well-being and happiness. That's why it's so important to be aware of when you're reacting and when you're being yourself. If this succeeds, then you have the opportunity to become the master of your life, and not let your fears rule it.

My goal in this chapter is to help you recognize the trauma of being rejected. If you recognize yourself in the mask of a fugitive, then in the last chapter you will find complete information on how to heal from this trauma, how to become yourself again and not suffer from the feeling that everyone rejected you. If you do not find this trauma in yourself, then I advise you to turn to those who know you well for confirmation; this will eliminate the error. As I said, the trauma of the rejected may not be deep, and then you will have only some of the characteristics of the fugitive. Let me remind you that one should trust first of all the physical description, because the physical body never lies, in contrast to its owner, who is quite capable of deceiving himself.

If you find this trauma in someone around you, you should not try to change him. Instead, use what you learn in this book to develop more compassion for other people, to better understand the nature of their reactive behavior. And it is better for them to read this book themselves, if they have an interest in the problem, than to try to retell it to them.

Trauma Characteristics of the REJECTED

Awakening trauma: from the moment of conception to one year; With parent of his polo. Does not feel the right to exist.

Mask: fugitive.

Parent: Same gender.

Body: compressed, narrow, fragile, fragmented.

Eyes: small, with an expression of fear; impression of a mask around the eyes.

Dictionary: "nothing" "no one" "exists" "disappear" "I'm sick of...".

Character: Detachment from the material. The pursuit of excellence. Intelligence. Transitions through stages of great love to periods of deep hatred. He does not believe in his right to exist. Sexual difficulties. He considers himself useless, worthless. Strives for privacy. Stewed. Knows how to be invisible. Finds a variety of ways to escape. It is easy to go to the astral plane. He thinks he is not understood. Can't let her inner child live in peace.

Most afraid of, panic.

Food: Appetite often disappears due to the influx of emotions or fear. Eats small portions. Sugar, alcohol and drugs as escape routes. predisposition to anorexia.

Typical diseases: Skin · Diarrhea · Arrhythmia · Violation of respiratory functions · Allergies · Vomiting · Fainting · Noma · Hypoglycemia · Diabetes · Depression · Suicidal tendencies · Psychoses.

CHAPTER 2
Rejected

Fugitive Physique (Rejected Injury)

Let's look in the dictionaries what the words "reject", "rejected" mean. Dictionaries give several synonymous definitions: push away; remove, refuse; not tolerate; to not allow; expose.

Often people find it difficult to grasp the difference between the two concepts - "reject" and "leave". To leave someone means to move away from him for the sake of someone or something else. To reject means to push away, not to want to see next to you and in your life. The rejecter uses the expression: "I don't want to," and the one who leaves says: "I can't."

Being rejected is a very deep trauma; the rejected feels it as a renunciation of his very essence, as a denial of his right to exist. Of all five traumas, the feeling of being rejected appears first, which means that the cause of such a trauma in the life of a person appears earlier than others. The soul that has returned to Earth to heal this trauma is rejected from the very moment of birth, and in many cases even earlier.

A suitable example is an unwanted child who was born “by chance”. If the soul of this infant has not coped with the experience of being rejected, that is, if it has not managed to remain itself and be in prosperity, despite rejection, then it will inevitably experience the state of being rejected. A striking case is a child of the wrong sex. There are many other reasons why a parent rejects their child; it is very important for us here to understand that only those souls who need to experience the rejected experience are attracted to a parent or parents of a certain type: these parents will inevitably reject their child.

It often happens that the parent has no intention of rejecting the child, nevertheless, the child feels rejected for every, even petty, reason - after an offensive remark, or when one of the parents experiences anger, impatience, etc. If the wound not healed, it is very easy to stir it up. A person who feels rejected is biased. He interprets all events through the filters of his trauma, and the feeling of being rejected only intensifies, although perhaps not true.

This mask manifests itself physically in the form of an elusive physique, that is, a body (or body part) that seems to want to disappear. Narrow, compressed, it seems to be specially designed so that it is easier to slip away, take up less space, not be visible among others. This body does not want to take up much space, it takes on the form escaping, escaping and all his life he strives to occupy as little space as possible. When one sees a person who looks like an incorporeal ghost - "skin and bones" - one can expect with a high degree of certainty that he is suffering from a deep trauma of a rejected being.

Fugitive- this is a person who doubts his right to exist; it even seems that it is not fully embodied. Therefore, her body gives the impression of an unfinished, incomplete, consisting of fragments poorly fitted to each other. The left side of the face, for example, may differ markedly from the right, and this can be seen with the naked eye, there is no need to check with a ruler. Remember, by the way, how many people have you seen with perfectly symmetrical sides of the body?

When I talk about an “incomplete” body, I mean those parts of the body where whole pieces seem to be missing (buttocks, chest, chin, ankles are much smaller than calves, hollows in the back, chest, abdomen, etc. ).

characteristic feature fugitive are small face and eyes. The eyes appear empty or absent because the person with this injury tends to retreat to his own world or "fly to the moon" (astral plane) at every opportunity. Often these eyes are filled with fear. Watching the face fugitive, you can literally feel the mask on him, especially in front of his eyes. He himself often imagines that he is looking at the world through a mask. Some fugitives admitted to me that the feeling of a mask on their face sometimes does not go away for a whole day, while for others it lasts for several minutes. It doesn't really matter how long it lasts; the important thing is that this is their way of not being present in what is happening around.

Not to be present, so as not to suffer.

The presence of all these signs indicates that the trauma of the rejected person is very deep, much deeper than in a person with a single sign - for example, only eyes fugitive. If the body has, say, half of the features fugitive, then we can assume that this person wears a protective mask not all the time, but about half. This may refer, for example, to a person with a fairly large body, but a small face and small eyes. fugitive or to a person with a large body and very short ankles. If not all the signs of the rejected are observed, then the trauma is not so deep.

Wearing a mask is not being yourself. As a child, we develop not my demeanor, believing that it will protect us. The first reaction of a human being who feels rejected is a desire to run away, slip away, disappear. A child who feels rejected and creates a mask fugitive usually lives in an imaginary world. For this reason, he is most often intelligent, prudent, quiet and does not cause problems.

Alone, he amuses himself with his imaginary world and builds castles in the air. He may even believe that his parents are not real, that they mixed up newborns in the hospital. Such children invent many ways to run away from home; one of them is an expressed desire to go to school. However, having come to school and feeling rejected there too (or rejecting themselves), they go to their own world, "to the moon." One woman told me that she felt like a “tourist” at school.

On the other hand, a child of such a warehouse wants to be noticed, although he is not sure of his right to exist. I remember one girl who hid behind a closet at the very moment when her parents were meeting guests at the doorstep of the house. When they noticed that the child was gone, everyone rushed to look for her. She did not leave her shelter, although she heard well how the anxiety of adults was growing. She said to herself: “I want them to find me. I want them to understand that I exist.". This girl was so unsure of her right to exist that she arranged situations that could confirm this right.

Since the size of the body of such a child is less than average and it often resembles a doll or some kind of fragile and defenseless creature, the mother takes care of him unnecessarily; and he gets used to the fact that everyone constantly says: he is too small for this, he is too weak for that, etc. The child begins to believe in this so much that his body really becomes small. For this reason, "to be loved" means something suffocating to him. Afterwards, when someone loves him, his first impulse will be to reject this love or run away, because the fear of suffocation will still nest in him. An overprotective child feels rejected, feels that he is not accepted for who he is. Trying to somehow compensate for his smallness and fragility, relatives try to do everything and even think for him; but even then, instead of feeling loved, the child feels rejected in his abilities.

Fugitive prefers not to be attached to material things, because they can prevent him from running away when and where he pleases. It seems as if he really looks at everything material from the top down. He asks himself what he is doing on this planet; it is very hard for him to believe that he can be happy here. He is especially attracted to everything that is connected with the spirit, as well as the intellectual world. He rarely uses material things for pleasure, believing such pleasure to be superficial. One young woman told me that she didn't like going to the shops. She does it just to feel alive. Fugitive admits that money is needed, but it does not bring him joy.

Detachment fugitive from material things causes difficulties in his sexual life. He is ready to believe that sexuality is contrary to spirituality. Many fugitives-Women have told me that they consider sex to be a non-spiritual phenomenon, especially after they become mothers. Some even managed to set the spouse in such a way that he did not want physical intimacy with them throughout the entire period of pregnancy.

To the fugitives it can be very difficult to understand that they can and have the right to have the same sexual needs as any normal person. They gravitate towards situations in which they find themselves rejected sexually - or deny themselves a sexual life.

The trauma of rejection is experienced with a same-sex parent.

The role of a parent of the same gender

is to teach us

love - love yourself and give love.

The parent of the opposite sex must

learn to love yourself and

accept love.

Fugitive does not believe in his worth, he does not put himself in anything. And for this reason, he uses all means to become perfect and acquire value both in his own eyes and in the eyes of others. The word "NOBODY" is a favorite in his vocabulary, and he applies it with equal success to himself and to others:

* "My boss said I was nobody, I had to leave."

* "In economic matters, my mother is nobody."

* “My dad is just a nobody in a relationship with my mom. So was my husband; I don't blame him for leaving me."

In Quebec, the word "NOTHING" is preferred:

* "I know that I am nothing, others are more interesting than me."

* "No matter what I do, it does not give anything, anyway, every time I have to start over."

* "I'm nothing, nothing ... do as you want."

One man- fugitive confessed at the seminar that he feels like a nonentity and a slacker in front of his father. " When he talks to me, I'm crushed. If he is able to think, then only about how to escape from him; where do all my arguments and self-control go. His mere presence depresses me." Woman- fugitive told me how, at the age of sixteen, she decided that from now on her mother was nothing to her - after her mother said that it would be better if she did not have such a daughter, it would be better if she disappeared, even if she died. Avoiding suffering, the daughter has since withdrawn completely from her mother.

It is interesting to note that the flight of a child who feels rejected is predominantly encouraged by a parent of the same sex with him. Most often in stories about the departure of children from home, I hear the phrase of a parent: “Are you leaving? Very well, it will be freer here.” The child, of course, feels his rejection even more painfully and is even more angry with the parent. This kind of situation easily arises with a parent who himself suffers from the same trauma. He encourages withdrawal, because this means is familiar to him, even if he does not realize it.

Notable place in the dictionary fugitive also occupy the words "does not exist", "non-existent". For example, to the questions: How are you with sex? or “What kind of relationship do you have with such and such a person?” he answers: " They don't exist”, while most people will simply answer that things are not going well or that the relationship is not working out.

The fugitive also likes the words to disappear, disappear. He can say: "My father treats my mother like a prostitute ... I would like to disappear" or “I wish my parents were gone!”

Fugitive seeks loneliness, solitude, because he is afraid of the attention of others - he does not know how to behave at the same time, it seems to him that his existence is too noticeable. And in the family, and in any group of people, he is stewed. He believes that he must endure the most unpleasant situations to the end, as if he has no right to fight back; in any case, he sees no options for salvation. Here is an example: a girl asks her mother to help her deal with the lessons and hears in response: “ Go to dad. Can't you see that I'm busy and he has nothing to do? The first reaction of the rejected child will be the thought: Well, again, I was not courteous enough, and therefore my mother refused to help me, ” and then the girl will go looking for a quiet corner where she can hide from everyone.

At fugitive usually very few friends at school, and later - at work. He is considered closed and left alone. The more he isolates himself, the more invisible he seems. He falls into a vicious circle: feeling rejected, he puts on a mask fugitive not to suffer; he is so obscured that others stop noticing him; he becomes increasingly lonely, which gives him even more reason to feel rejected.

And now I will describe to you a situation that was repeated many times at the very end of my seminars, at the moment when everyone tells how the seminar helped him. With great surprise, I discover the presence of a personality that I did not notice during the two-day seminar! I ask myself: But where has she been hiding all this time?» Then I see that she has a body fugitive, that she arranged herself so as not to speak or ask questions during the whole seminar, and that she sat behind the others all the time, trying not to be seen. When I tell such participants that they are overly shy, they almost invariably reply that they have nothing interesting to say, so they didn't speak.

Really, fugitive usually says little. Sometimes he can talk, and talks a lot - he tries to assert his importance; in this case, others see pride in his statements.

At fugitive often a SKIN PROBLEM develops - so that it is not touched. The skin is a contact organ, its appearance can attract or repel another person. Skin disease is an unconscious way to protect yourself from being touched, especially in those places that are associated with the problem. I have often heard from the fugitives: "When someone touches me, I feel like I'm being pulled out of my cocoon." The wound of the rejected hurts and makes him eventually believe that if he goes to his own world, he will no longer suffer, because he himself will not reject himself, and others will not be able to reject him. Therefore, he often evades participation in group work, stews. He hides in his cocoon.

Therefore fugitive easily and willingly goes on astral journeys: unfortunately, these journeys are more often made unconsciously. He may even think that this is a common occurrence and that others are there as often as he does. In thoughts and ideas fugitive constantly scattered; sometimes you can hear from him: I need to collect myself- it seems to him that it consists of separate pieces. This impression is especially characteristic of those whose body resembles a construction of disparate parts. More than once I heard from the fugitives: I feel like I'm cut off from other people. Like I'm not here". Some have told me that they sometimes distinctly feel their body split in half - as if an invisible thread were cutting through it at the waist. At one of my acquaintances, this thread divided her body at chest level. As a result of the release technique I teach in one of my workshops, she felt that her upper and lower parts of her body were connected, and was very surprised by the new sensation. This helped her understand that she had not truly been in her body since childhood. She never knew what "being tied to the ground" meant.

In seminars, I notice fugitives, mostly women who like to sit on a chair cross-legged under them; they seem to be more comfortable sitting on the ground. But, since they hardly touch the ground, it is not difficult for them slip away. But they pay money to attend our classes, and this fact confirms their intention - or at least the desire of some part of them - to be here although it is very difficult for them to concentrate, to "collect themselves". So I tell them that they have a choice - go to the astral plane and miss what's happening here, or stay tied to their place and be present in the present.

As I said above, fugitive feels neither acceptance nor goodwill from a parent of the same sex. This does not necessarily mean that the parent rejects it. It is his, fugitive, personal feeling. The same soul could come to Earth in order to overcome the trauma of humiliation, and incarnate with the same parents with exactly the same attitude towards their child. On the other hand, it goes without saying that fugitive tends to experience rejection more than any other person - say a brother or sister - who does not have this trauma.

A person experiencing the suffering of a rejected person is constantly looking for the love of a parent of the same sex with him; he may also transfer his search to other persons of the same sex. He will consider himself an incomplete being until he wins the love of a parent. He is very sensitive to the slightest remarks from this parent and is always ready to decide that he is rejected. Bitterness and anger gradually develop in him, often turning into hatred, so great is his suffering. Don't forget that it takes a lot of love to hate. Hate is a strong but disappointed love. The wound of the rejected is so deep that of all five characters fugitive most prone to hate. He easily bypasses the stage of great love in order to give himself up to great hatred. This is an indicator of the strongest internal suffering.

As for the parent of the opposite sex, fugitive he himself is afraid to reject him and in every possible way restrains himself in his actions and statements in relation to him. Due to his injury, he cannot be himself. He resorts to various tricks and precautions so as not to reject this parent - he does not want to be accused of rejecting anyone himself. On the other hand, he wants the parent of the same sex to curry favor with him - this allows him not to feel his rejection so sharply. He does not want to see that his sufferings of the rejected one are due to internal persistent trauma, and the parent has nothing to do with it, If fugitive experiences the experience of being rejected by a parent (or other person) of the opposite sex, then he blames himself for this and rejects himself.

If you see the trauma of the rejected in yourself, then for you, even if your parent really rejects you, it is very important to understand and accept the following thought: “It is precisely because your trauma is not healed that you attract a certain type of situation and a certain parent». As long as you believe that all your misfortunes are the fault of other people, your injury cannot be healed. As a consequence of your reaction to your own parents, you will very easily feel rejected by other people of your gender, and you will always be afraid of rejecting a person of the opposite sex yourself.

The deeper the trauma of the rejected, the

pulls him closer

the circumstances in which it is

rejected or rejects.

The more fugitive rejects himself, the stronger his fear of rejection. He constantly humiliates and underestimates himself. He often compares himself to those who are stronger than him in some way, and thus develops a belief in his own inferiority. He does not notice that in some areas he can surpass other people. He will not believe in any way that someone would like to make friends with him, that someone sees him as a spouse, that they can truly love him. One mother told me about her children: they tell her that they love her, but she does not understand why they love her!

Everything turns out so that fugitive constantly lives in an uncertain state: if he is elected, he does not believe in it and rejects himself - sometimes to such an extent that, in fact, he provokes the situation; if he is not elected, he feels rejected by others. One young man from a large family told me that his father never entrusted him with anything, from which the child made a categorical conclusion that all other children are better than him. And it is not surprising that now the father always chooses one of them. A vicious circle has formed.

Fugitive often says (or thinks) that all his deeds and thoughts are worthless. When attention is paid to him, he gets lost, he begins to think that he takes up too much space. If it takes up a lot of space, it seems to him that he is disturbing someone, which means that he will be rejected by those who are disturbed. Even in the womb, the fugitive does not take up extra space. He is doomed to keep quiet until his injury is healed.

When he is talking and someone interrupts him, he instantly takes it as proof that he is not worth listening to, and habitually falls silent. A person who is not weighed down by the trauma of the rejected person, in this case, also concludes that his statement turned out to be uninteresting - but not himself! To the fugitive it is equally difficult to express one's opinion when one is not asked: it seems to him that the interlocutors will see this as a confrontation and reject him.

Many women say that even in adolescence they stopped trusting their mother for fear of not being understood. They believe that to be understood is to be loved. Meanwhile, one has nothing to do with the other. To love is to accept another, even if you do not understand him. Because of this belief, they become evasive in conversation. And it turns out that they are always trying to get away from the subject of discussion, but are afraid to start another. Of course, they behave this way not only with their mother, but also with other women. If the fugitive is a man, then his relationship with his father and other men is exactly the same.

Another distinctive property fugitive is the desire for perfection in everything that he does: he believes that if he makes a mistake, he will be condemned, and to be condemned for him is the same as being rejected. Since he does not believe in his own perfection, he tries to compensate for this by the perfection of what he does. He, unfortunately, confuses "to be" and "to do." The search for perfection can reach the point of obsession with him. He so passionately desires to do everything flawlessly that any work takes him an unreasonably long time. And in the end, it is because of this that he is rejected.

Reaching its limit, fear fugitive goes into a panic. At the mere thought of the possibility of panic, he first of all looks for where to hide, run away, disappear. He would rather disappear, because he knows that in a state of panic he will not budge at all. He believes that by hiding somewhere, he will avoid trouble. He is so convinced of his inability to deal with panic that he eventually succumbs to it very easily, even when there is no reason for it. The desire to hide, to disappear is deeply characteristic of fugitives; I have often seen cases of regression to the embryonic state. Such people said that they wanted to hide in their mother's stomach - another indication of how early this begins.

By attracting to him, like a magnet, people and situations that he fears, fugitive in the same way provokes circumstances in which he has a panic. His fear, of course, further dramatizes what is happening. He always finds any explanation for his flight or evasion.

Fugitive especially easily panicked and numb with fear in the presence of a parent or other people of the same sex (especially if they somehow resemble this parent). With a parent and with other people of the opposite sex, he does not experience this fear, it is much easier for him to communicate with them. I also noticed that in the vocabulary of the fugitive the word "panic" occurs quite often. He might say, for example: “I experience panic at the thought of quitting smoking.” Usually a person will simply say that it is difficult for him to quit smoking.

Fear of your own panic leads in many situations fugitive to the fact that he loses his memory. He may even think that he has a memory problem, but in fact he has a problem with fear. During course seminars "Become an entertainer" I have seen this picture more than once: one of the participants, fugitive, must speak to the rest and tell something or hold a mini-conference; but even when he is well prepared and knows his material, fear at the last minute builds up to such a level that everything flies out of the speaker's head. Sometimes he just leaves his body, and it freezes in front of us, like a paralyzed one, like a sleepwalker. Fortunately, this problem is gradually being solved as he gets over his rejection trauma.

It is interesting to see how our traumas affect our relationship with food. A person feeds his physical body in the same way as the mental and emotional. Fugitive prefers small portions; he often loses his appetite when he experiences bouts of fear or other strong emotions. Of all the listed types fugitive he is most prone to anorexia: he almost completely refuses food, because he seems to himself too big and plump, although in reality the opposite is true. Weight loss below normal, exhaustion - this is his attempt to disappear. Sometimes appetite wins, and then fugitive greedily pounces on food - this is also an attempt to disappear, to dissolve in food. However, this method fugitives rarely used; more often they are attracted to alcohol or drugs.

Runaways they have a weakness for sweets, especially when they are overcome by strong fear. Since fear robs a person of energy, it is natural to assume that introducing sugar into the body can make up for the loss. Indeed, sugar gives energy, but, unfortunately, not for long, so you have to replenish it in this way too often.

Here are some typical fugitive illness and indisposition.

* He often suffers from DIARRHEA - he rejects, throws away food before the body has time to assimilate the nutrients, just like he rejects a situation that could be beneficial for him.

* Many suffer from ARRYTHMIA - an irregular heart rhythm. When the heart begins to beat like crazy, they have a feeling that it wants to escape from the chest, fly away; this is another form of wanting to avoid a painful situation.

* I have said before that the wound of the rejected is so painful that fugitive it is quite logical to develop hatred for the parent of the same sex, whom he, as a child, condemned for the suffering caused to him. However, the fugitive cannot forgive himself for hating his parent and prefers not to think and not to know about the existence of this hatred. Not giving himself the right to hate the parent of the same sex, he can bring himself to the disease of CANCER: this disease is associated with bitterness, anger, hatred - with mental pain experienced in loneliness. If a person manages to come to a confession that he hated or hates a parent, there will be no cancer. He may develop an acute illness if he continues to harbor designs hostile to that parent, but it will not be cancer. Cancer manifests itself most often in someone who has suffered a lot, but blames only himself for this. To agree that you hate your father or mother is really difficult, because it means admitting that you are evil and heartless; it also means admitting that you are rejecting the parent you yourself accuse of rejecting you. Fugitive does not give himself the right to be a child. He forces maturation believing that this way he will suffer less from his trauma. For this reason, his body (or some part of it) resembles the body of a child. Cancer disease indicates that he did not give the child in himself the right to suffer. He did not accept what is humanly fair - to hate the parent, whom you consider the culprit of your suffering.

* Among other diseases characteristic of fugitive, we also see disturbances in the RESPIRATORY FUNCTIONS, especially during panic.

*Fugitive prone to ALLERGIES is a reflection of the aversion that he has experienced or is experiencing in relation to certain foods or substances.

* He may also choose to vomit as an indicator of his disgust for a particular person or situation. I even heard such statements from teenagers: “I want to vomit my mother (or father).” It is not uncommon for a fugitive to want to "vomit up" a situation or a hateful person and may express their feelings by saying, "That's a sickening person" or "Changing your conversations makes you sick." All of these are ways to express your desire to reject someone or something.

* VERTIGO or FAINTENANCE are also suitable remedies if you really want to avoid a situation or a person.

* In serious cases fugitive rescued by KOMA.

* Fugitive, AGORAPHOBIA sufferer uses this disorder when he wants to avoid certain situations and people that can cause him to panic (more on this behavioral disorder will be discussed in Chapter 3).

* If a fugitive abuses sugar, it can provoke pancreatic diseases such as HYPOGLYCEMIA or DIABETES.

* If he has accumulated too much hatred for the parent as a result of the suffering experienced and experienced by him as a rejected being, and if he has reached his emotional and mental limit, then he may develop a DEPRESSIVE or MANIC-DEPRESSIVE state. If he contemplates suicide, he does not speak of it, and when he proceeds to action, he provides for everything so as not to fail. Those who often talk about suicide and are usually mistaken when moving into action belong rather to the category of the abandoned; he will be a speech in the next chapter.

* To the fugitive from childhood it is difficult to recognize oneself as a full-fledged human being, therefore he strives to be like a hero or heroine he adores, he is ready to get lost, dissolve in his idol - for example, a young girl longs to be Marilyn Monroe; this lasts until she decides to be someone else. The danger of such a deviation in behavior lies in the fact that over time it can turn into PSYCHOSIS.

The illnesses and ailments listed above are possible in people with other types of trauma, but still most common in those who feel rejected.

If you find yourself traumatized by being rejected, it is more than likely that your same-sex parent also feels rejected by their same-sex parent; moreover, it is very likely that he feels rejected by you as well. This may not be realized by either side, nevertheless it is true and confirmed by thousands of people - fugitives.

We blame others for what we don't want

see in ourselves.

That is why we attract those people who show us how we behave with others or with ourselves.

Shame is another means of becoming aware that we are rejecting ourselves or rejecting another person. Indeed, we experience a sense of shame when we want to hide or hide our behavior.

It is normal to find shameful behavior for which we reproach others. We really don't want them to find out that we are behaving the same way.

Remember: everything described above is experienced

only if the sufferer

rejected person accepts

decision to wear a fugitive mask, believing

that thus avoid suffering,

proportional to the depth of the injury. This

he wears a mask on occasion

a few minutes a week, in others -

almost constantly.

Behavior typical of fugitive, dictated by the fear of repeating the suffering of the rejected. But it may also be that you recognize yourself in some of the behaviors described above, but not in all. A complete match of all characteristics is almost impossible. Each trauma has its own forms of behavior and internal states. How a person thinks, feels, speaks and acts (in accordance with his traumas) determines his reaction to everything that happens in life. A person in a state of reaction cannot be balanced, cannot be focused in his heart, cannot experience well-being and happiness. That's why it's so important to be aware of when you're reacting and when you're being yourself. If this succeeds, then you have the opportunity to become the master of your life, and not let your fears rule it.

My goal in this chapter is to help you recognize the trauma of being rejected. If you recognize yourself in a mask fugitive, then in the last chapter you will find complete information on how to heal from this trauma, how to become yourself again and not suffer from the feeling that everyone rejects you. If you do not find this trauma in yourself, then I advise you to turn to those who know you well for confirmation; this will eliminate the error. As I said, the rejectionist's trauma may be shallow, and then you will have only certain characteristic features. fugitive. Let me remind you that one should trust first of all the physical description, because the physical body never lies, in contrast to its owner, who is quite capable of deceiving himself.

If you find this trauma in someone around you, you should not try to change him. Instead, use what you learn in this book to develop more compassion for other people, to better understand the nature of their reactive behavior. And it is better for them to read this book themselves, if THEM have an interest in the problem, than to try to retell it to them.

Characteristics of injury

REJECTED

Awakening Trauma: from the moment of conception to one year; with same-sex parent . Does not feel the right to exist.

Mask: fugitive.

Parent: the same gender.

Body: compressed, narrow, fragile, fragmented.

Eyes: small, with an expression of fear; impression of a mask around the eyes.

Dictionary:"nothing" "no one" "does not exist" "disappear", "I'm sick of...".

Character: Detachment from the material. The pursuit of excellence. Intelligence. Transitions through stages of great love to periods of deep hatred. He does not believe in his right to exist. Sexual difficulties. He considers himself useless, worthless. Strives for privacy. Stewed. Knows how to be invisible. Finds a variety of ways to escape. It is easy to go to the astral plane. He thinks he is not understood. Can't let her inner child live in peace.

Most afraid of: panic.

Nutrition: Appetite often disappears due to the influx of emotions or fear. Eats small portions. Sugar, alcohol and drugs as escape routes. predisposition to anorexia.

Typical diseases: Skin Diarrhea Arrhythmia Respiratory dysfunction Allergies Vomiting Fainting Coma Hypoglycemia Diabetes Depression Suicidal tendencies Psychoses.

Psychologist Liz Burbo in one of her books (“Five traumas that prevent you from being yourself”) describes the five main mental traumas that a person experiences in his life, and which can lead him not only to psycho-emotional suffering, but also negatively affect his condition. physical health.

Mental trauma is the consequences of painful childhood experiences that affect a person's life and largely determine his ability to overcome difficulties.

Since a person receives these mental traumas starting from early childhood, Liz Burbo considers them in chronological order:

"rejected"
"left"
"humiliated"
"betrayed"
"were unfair."

Along with an explanation of these injuries, the psychologist invites the reader to get acquainted with the so-called masks that a person is forced to create in order to protect himself from the experienced mental pain.

These masks are designed to cover up injuries throughout life, so each injury has its own mask: the injury “rejected” - the mask of “fugitive”, “left” - “addicted”, “humiliated” - “masochist”, “betrayed” - “ controlling", "were unfair" - "rigid (hard)".

Let us consider these injuries and masks in more detail in order to “know them by sight”, since they can be behind certain psychosomatic ailments.

Injury "rejected" - mask "fugitive"

Injury of the rejected (fugitive physique)

According to Liz Burbo, this injury is very deep, as it appears at the age of up to a year. The rejected feels this trauma as a rejection of his very essence, as a denial of his right to exist.

Vivid examples are situations such as an unwanted child, a child of the wrong sex.

It should be noted that the psychologist shares two different concepts: - a person suffering from a rejected complex. « Fugitive Mask" - the character of a person, developing as a means of evading the suffering of the rejected. That is, a mask is needed in order not to be yourself.

If we talk about a runaway man, then, Liz Burbo, based on her practice, revealed typical signs of his physique. The very body of such a person has an “escaping”, “running away” form: it does not take up much space and space, that is, a small, narrow, thin body (“skin and bones”), similar to an incorporeal sign (as if a hint that a person has not even fully incarnated, as he doubts his right to exist). Often the body of the rejected person appears deformed (asymmetrical, twisted, incompletely "staffed" with a small face and eyes full of fear).

Characteristics of injury

A child who feels rejected and creates a mask of a fugitive lives in his own imaginary world. In this regard, according to Liz Burbo, he is smart, prudent, quiet and does not create problems. He feels good in his own world, he can even come up with a comforting story for himself that his parents are not real, that they just mixed up in the maternity hospital and took the wrong one. He is characterized by a desire to run away from home for any reason (for example, they have a pronounced desire to go to school, although they also feel rejected there).

On the other hand, the psychologist notes, the rejected child wants his parents to notice him (he is sick, gets seriously injured, hides in the closet and waits to be found, etc.)

Since such a child, as a rule, is smaller than average in body, parents can begin to patronize him a lot, because of which he begins to think that he is again not accepted as he is.

The rejected often asks himself: what is he doing on this planet? He is attracted by everything that is connected with the spirit and intellect, and he looks down on the material, as it were. This same position can explain such consequences as difficulties in sexual life.

The fugitive as a person does not believe in his value and does not put himself in anything, therefore, he strives to be perfect in order to gain this value. As Liz Burbo writes, the characteristic words of such a person are "no one", "nothing", "does not exist", "disappear", etc.

Such a person usually seeks loneliness and solitude, as he is afraid of others because he does not know how to behave in front of them. He has few friends, both at school and at work, and speaks little. In turn, he is considered withdrawn and left alone, and this makes him even more lonely.

Runaways often have problems with the skin so that they do not touch it: since the skin is a contact organ, its diseases become an unconscious way to protect yourself from being touched.

Liz Burbo claims that the trauma of rejection is experienced with a same-sex parent. However, it is not necessary that the parent has the intention to reject the child. The fact is that this is a personal feeling of the child: the child, for certain reasons (which are related to the life lessons that his soul came to go through) does not feel acceptance or goodwill from a parent of the same sex with him. He wants to win the love of this parent, but at the same time is very sensitive to the comments from this parent, and is always ready to decide that he is rejected.

In such a situation, bitterness and anger can develop in the child, often turning into hatred (like a strong but disappointed love, so great is his suffering).

As noted by Liz Burbo, the child easily panics and becomes numb with fear in the presence of a parent or other people of the same sex. The word "panic" often appears in his vocabulary. Fear of his own panic leads to the fact that the fugitive loses his memory at a crucial moment.

As for the parent of the opposite sex, then, as the psychologist writes, the fugitive himself is afraid to reject him and in every possible way restrains himself in his actions and statements in relation to him.

If the fugitive experiences the feeling of being rejected by the parent of the opposite sex, then he blames himself for this and rejects himself.

Liz Bourbo found that trauma also affects eating habits. So, the fugitive prefers small portions, and when he experiences bouts of fear, he often loses his appetite. Sometimes he is prone to anorexia, because he believes that he is too big and plump, although this is not so (recall the physique of the rejected).

According to Liz Burbo, runaways have a weakness for sweets, and they may also be attracted to alcoholic beverages or drugs.

diarrhea,
arrhythmia,
allergy,
vomit,
dizziness,
fainting,
agoraphobia (fear of open spaces),
hypoglycemia or diabetes

Also, such a person may develop a depressive or manic-depressive state, the consequence of which may be the idea of suicide. Sometimes psychosis can develop due to the adoration of one's idol.

Injury "left" - mask "addict"

Abandoned Trauma (Physique Addict)

To leave means to leave a person, to retire temporarily or permanently. If the rejected person experiences his trauma at the level of “to be”, then the abandoned person experiences his trauma at the level of “have” and “do”. This injury usually occurs between one and three years of age.

Feeling abandoned can develop in the following situations:

mother's employment in connection with the appearance of a new child;
constant employment of parents at work and, in connection with this, a short pastime with the child;
hospitalization of one child, without parents (the child cannot understand why the parents are not with him);
leaving a child with grandmothers during the holidays;
the child is left to himself (mom is sick, dad works), lack of emotional and physical nutrition, etc.

As Liz Bourbo writes, the physique of the addict is characterized by a lack of tone in the body: a long, thin, sagging body, the muscular system is underdeveloped and sluggish, large sad eyes, weak legs and long arms, sometimes the back is curved, some parts of the body are located below normal, some parts of the body also look hanging (shoulders, cheeks, stomach, etc.).

Characteristics of injury

According to Liz Burbo, the trauma of the abandoned is inflicted by the parent of the opposite sex. She also found that often the trauma of the abandoned is combined with the trauma of the rejected. A person with abandonment trauma is constantly emotionally hungry.

Trying to hide his injury from himself, a person creates for himself the mask of an addict. The addict is sure that he is not able to achieve anything on his own, that he needs support. Such a person tends to become a victim, and there is a high probability that his parent (or both parents) were also victims.

Here the psychologist explains that the victim in this case means a person who is always inclined to create problems for himself in order to attract attention, and basically, these are health problems. This is due to the need of the addict, as it seems to him that he is being given too little attention.

Such a person overdramatizes everything, creating many problems for himself, since the role of the victim allows him to receive much-needed attention.

In studying this mask, Liz Bourbeau found that the addict often willingly plays the role of rescuer - a subtle way to get attention. But this role negatively affects his back health, as he takes on other people's duties.

The addict has periods of ups and downs (feeling happy alternates with feeling miserable). He feels an urgent need for support from other people, hardly accepts a refusal to his request for help, does not like to act alone.

The addict's biggest fear is being alone, which is why he clings to others. Such a person, according to the psychologist, has the most powerful ability not to see problems in his partner, because he does not want to be abandoned. In this regard, he does not like the word "leave".

The strongest emotion an addict experiences is sadness. In order not to feel it, the addict seeks the company of other people. In moments of crisis, such a person can reach the thought of suicide and tell everyone about it. Although the first attempt will be unsuccessful, but in the absence of empathy, it can really do it.

At the same time, the addict thinks that he is not worthy of the attention of another person. He is afraid of all bosses and powerful people, as they seem to him cold and indifferent.

According to the observations of Liz Burbo, an addicted person is prone to bulimia: she can eat a lot without gaining weight. This is due to the fact that such a person is internally tuned to the fact that he always lacks everything.

Addicts often get sick, especially in childhood, they are weak and frail in body. Among the frequent ailments of such people, the psychologist identifies asthma, diseases of the bronchi, pancreas and adrenal glands, myopia, hysteria, depression, migraines, as well as rare and incurable diseases.

Injury "humiliated" - mask "masochist"

Humiliated Trauma (Masochist physique)

Humiliation is an insult, a blow to the dignity of a person, which is felt by him as oppression, shame and disgrace.

This trauma, according to Liz Burbo, awakens at the age of one to three years, during the child's awareness of the functions of his physical body: the child learns to eat independently, go to the toilet, talk and listen to what adults say to him, etc.

The moment of awakening of the trauma are situations when the child feels that the parent is ashamed of him because the child did something, spoiled it, often in front of others (dirty, peed, etc.).

The trauma of the humiliated is most often experienced with the mother.

According to Liz Burbo, the humiliated person creates for himself the mask of a masochist - a person who experiences satisfaction, pleasure from suffering and unconsciously seeks humiliation.

The humiliated has a large and thick body, which, as it were, reflects his beliefs about himself as low, unclean.

He has a barrel-shaped body due to excess fat. If the injury is shallow, then only some parts of the body (stomach, buttocks, chest) will be rounded. The physique of a masochist is also distinguished by a short waist, a thick swollen neck, a round face with wide innocent eyes.

Characteristics of injury

The masochist seeks to prove his reliability and diligence, so he takes on a lot of work and responsibilities. As Liz Burbo writes, such a person has the gift of being drawn into situations in which he must deal with someone, help someone, patronize someone, gradually forgetting about himself. At the same time, the more he takes on himself, the more his weight becomes.

The weight and dimensions of the masochist's body grow and take up more and more space due to the fact that he himself wants to take a place in life. Therefore, interfering in the lives of loved ones, he does everything for them, not realizing that by doing so he humiliates them.

Liz Burbo argues that it is difficult for a masochist to express his true needs and feelings because from early childhood he is afraid to speak, because he is afraid of experiencing shame (or causing others to feel shame). As a rule, such a person is hypersensitive, and any trifle can hurt him. At the same time, he is ready to make others laugh by exposing himself as an object of ridicule.

The masochist perceives criticism with a sense of humiliation and his own worthlessness. But he himself considers himself much more worthless and insignificant and worthless than he really is (hence, the favorite words “a little”, “little”). Therefore, he likes small houses, cars, objects, etc.

Such a person tends to punish himself. As confirmation of this, he even likes to take the blame of others on himself and apologize.

The biggest fear for such a person is freedom, therefore he always unconsciously arranges so as not to be free.

The main ailments of the masochist Liz Burbo include back pain, a feeling of heaviness on the shoulders, respiratory diseases, problems with the legs and feet (varicose veins, sprains, fractures), liver problems, sore throats, tonsillitis and laryngitis, thyroid disease, skin itching and scabies, diseases of the pancreas, heart disease. Soda, on the other hand, should attribute surgical intervention as a consequence of his conviction in the inevitability of suffering.

Injury "betrayed" - mask "controlling"

Devotee trauma (controller's physique)

To betray means to cease to be faithful. Betrayal is associated with the inability to trust and rely.

According to Liz Bourbo, this trauma awakens between the ages of two and four, when sexual energy develops and the so-called oedipus complex arises (when an unconscious or conscious attraction to a parent of the opposite sex arises). Hence, the trauma is experienced only with a parent (or with another person acting as that parent) of the opposite sex.

The psychologist found that those who suffer from the trauma of betrayal did not resolve the Oedipus complex in childhood: their attachment to the parent of the opposite sex remained too strong, which in adulthood began to affect relationships with the opposite sex. Such people constantly compare their partners with their parent and expect the same from them that this parent could not give them.

A devoted child tends to feel needed, especially he wants the parent of the opposite sex to be well.

Liz Burbo lists situations that evoke betrayal trauma: if a parent of the opposite sex does not keep their promise or abuses the trust of such a child, the child feels betrayed by this parent. A sense of betrayal in a child also appears when a parent of the same sex is betrayed by a parent of the opposite sex, as well as in a situation where the father removes his little daughter from himself because a new child was born - a boy.

A child who has begun to experience such trauma creates a mask of "controller" for himself in order to ensure the fulfillment of tasks undertaken, to remain faithful, to justify responsibility, or to demand all this from others.

According to Liz Burbo, the controller creates a body that is distinguished by strength and power, as if saying: "I am responsible for everything, you can trust me." So, a controlling man is distinguished by beautiful broad shoulders, and a controlling woman is distinguished by width and “voluminousness” in the abdomen, buttocks, and hips.

Characteristics of injury

The gaze of the controller is fixed, so such a person grasps the situation very quickly. His gaze keeps the enemy at a distance, and the weak probes, intimidates. But this is just a way to hide your weakness and vulnerability.

According to Liz Burbo, controllers do everything in their power to be strong, responsible, special and significant people. In this way, they satisfy their ego, which does not want to see how many times he betrays himself or others.

The controller has the highest expectations, because he likes to anticipate and control everything in order to check whether others are doing well, what they should do and whether they can be relied upon.

The psychologist describes the controller as a strong personality. Such a person actively affirms what he believes and expects others to fully accept his beliefs. He is firmly convinced that he is right and expresses his opinion in a categorical tone.

At the same time, the controller avoids conflict situations for fear of losing control. He is afraid of commitment because of the fear of default (because he considers giving up his commitments as a betrayal he experienced as a child from his parent of the opposite sex not fulfilling his obligations in accordance with his expectations).

He often has mood swings. He is impatient with slow people, as he loves speed and speed of action (including eating quickly). Such a person does not like to be late, does not like to delegate things to others, because of this you can lose control. He is more demanding of others than of himself. Reputation for him is above all, even above the happiness of his children.

The controller does not like to be controlled or corrected after him, because he likes to do everything in his own way.

Such a person is prone to "futurization": he is constantly busy planning the near future, therefore he is practically unaware of the essence of the present.

It is very important for the controller to show his strength and courage to others, but he can hardly trust another because of the fear that his information can be used against him. He is very sensitive, but it is almost impossible to notice.

The strongest fear of the controller is associated with disintegration, separation, breakup (divorce), as well as with renunciation (understands as betrayal).

Such a person has particular difficulty in choosing, because it seems to him that due to the wrong choice, he can lose control.

Injury "were unfair" - mask "rigid (hard)"

Injury of injustice (rigid physique)

Liz Burbo explains injustice as a lack of justice and honesty. A person feels a sense of injustice when he does not see recognition of his dignity, when it seems to him that he does not receive what he deserves.

According to the psychologist, this trauma awakens at the age of three to five years, during the development of the child's individuality, when he realizes that he is a human being, a separate whole entity with its own characteristics. The child feels as an injustice that he cannot be whole and inviolable, cannot express himself and be himself.

The trauma of injustice is experienced, as a rule, with the parent of the same sex: the child suffers from his coldness (as it seems to the child), authority, severity, from his constant remarks.

Liz Bourbo argues that a child with such an injury creates a mask of rigidity for himself in order to isolate himself from the experiences he is experiencing, thus protecting himself. But the fact that he cuts himself off from experiences does not mean that he does not feel anything. On the contrary, such a person is very sensitive, but he develops in himself the ability not to feel his sensitivity and not show it to others. Therefore, a rigid person looks cold and insensitive.

The psychologist characterizes such a person as distinguished by a straight, rigid, and often perfect body. The physique is proportional, the shoulders are straight and the width is the same as the hips. Rigid people tend to be more afraid of weight gain than others. They are characterized by dynamic, but not flexible enough movements, clenched jaws, a proudly erect neck, clean skin and a clear look.

Rigid women are characterized by small stature. Such individuals love tight belts and clothes that highlight the waist. This is due to the fact that by pinching their waist (solar plexus area), they will feel less.

Characteristics of injury

According to Liz Burbo, already in childhood, a rigid person notices (or thinks so) that he is valued for what he does, and not for what he is. Therefore, he becomes industrious, executive, gets used to independently get out of difficult situations.

A characteristic gesture inherent in rigid personalities is crossing the arms over the chest as a symbol of blocking the solar plexus area (so as not to feel). For the same purpose, such individuals like to wear black clothes.

As Liz Burbo writes, a rigid person seeks correctness and justice at any cost, he himself also strives to be perfect in everything and fair. He is most inclined to envy, especially those who, in his opinion, deserve less, but receive more.

The psychologist notes that to deserve, on merit, on merit are the key concepts of a rigid person, since he likes to seek justice. And it is very important for him to make sure that what he receives, he deserves (otherwise he may refuse the award). In this regard, the rigid does not like to accept gifts.

However, rigid tend to exaggerate. So, they like to use the words "never", "always", "very" ("you are always gone").

To hide their sensitivity and emotions, rigid people resort to laughter. For the same reason, when asked about business, he always answers “Fine!” (even if it isn't).

The biggest fear of the rigid is the fear of making mistakes, as they are always preoccupied with perfection. Perhaps that is why they suffer from occupational exhaustion more often than others. Another big fear is the fear of coldness.

And the most painful injustice, says Liz Burbo, is experienced by the rigid from themselves, as they often blame themselves (that they buy something for themselves, that they rest, etc.).

Most often, rigid people experience the emotion of anger (especially towards themselves).

Among the main ailments of rigid Liz Burbo highlights the inflexibility and tension of the upper back, neck, knees, elbows, and other flexible areas of the body. This list includes diseases ending in -itis, as well as nervous exhaustion, nervousness, insomnia, constipation, hemorrhoids, spasms, convulsions, circulatory problems and varicose veins, skin problems (dryness, acne, psoriasis), liver disorders, visual impairment.

Healing Paths

Earlier we wrote that the injuries considered can negatively affect both the mental and physical health of a person. The key word here is "may", which means that under certain conditions, this can be avoided. What are these conditions? They just echo the ways of healing psychosomatic ailments.

In order to begin the path of healing, a person needs to see his problem (in this case, trauma). Why this moment should be emphasized: because many do not want to see or are so fused with the trauma that they really do not see it.

Observing and analyzing the events and people in your life will help you see the problem. Liz Bourbo highlights the following pattern: the deeper the trauma of a person, the stronger he attracts circumstances in which he is rejected (betrayed, humiliated, etc.) or rejected (betrays, humiliates, etc.) himself. And the more he does this in relation to himself, the stronger his fear of being rejected, betrayed, humiliated, etc.

We blame others for what we don't want to see in ourselves. Therefore, a person attracts the appropriate people or situations: in order to see through them what is in him.

Recognize and accept trauma: understand its essence and accept that it is in you (many people usually deny their trauma).

Since, according to the theory of Liz Burbo, wherever a person with mental trauma comes, wherever he tries to hide from situations reminiscent of his trauma, this suffering will haunt him for only one simple reason - the trauma sits in him, in his inner world, in his soul.

From here, healing will begin to occur only when a person stops running away from himself, from his mental pain, when he realizes that the people around him are not to blame for anything, just like himself. He just came to this Earth to go through this experience and, being healed, to be freed.

What needs to be done for successful healing? The answer lies in the cause of the injury. As Liz Bourbo points out, the main cause of any injury is the inability to forgive oneself for a wound inflicted on oneself or other people.

So, the first and most important thing is to forgive yourself and others. In fact, it is easy to do this if you know the essence of your trauma and accept that “Yes, it so happened that I wanted to go through this experience, so I attracted the relevant circumstances of my life (parents, loved ones, events) to show me that it is inside me. This means that there is no one to blame, since all of them, including myself, played their roles in this play (called Life). I understand that all this was done not from evil, but for the benefit of my soul, my development. Therefore, I easily forgive myself and others for the pain (as a signal that something was wrong) that was part of this experience and caused suffering to everyone who participated in this play. I THANK myself and everyone for this experience that has made me wiser.”

I would like to recall one parable about how the souls agreed on the upcoming life lesson.

One strong Soul wanted to know what forgiveness is and what it means to forgive. Other Souls at first dissuaded her, then out of love for her, agreed to help. One Soul said that only because of her great love for her, she agreed to incarnate as her parent and would constantly humiliate and scold her so that she would understand what forgiveness is and what it is to forgive. Another Soul also agreed to help and said that she would incarnate as her husband and would beat, offend and change, so that she would understand what forgiveness is and what it means to forgive. This Soul said that she would do it only because she loved her very much. And other Souls flew up to her and said that only because of love for her they were ready to go with her to Earth as her future disobedient children, betraying friends and other relatives who brought her suffering. Only for her sake. When they all incarnated on Earth, they forgot about the contract. The Soul that wanted to go through the experience of forgiveness also forgot, for the sake of which all other Souls did what they promised: they came into her life and began to help her see the experience she had chosen.

Is it possible to seriously blame or hate someone after that?

I wish you to see your (chosen by you) experience and go through it with an understanding of the essence and gratitude to all the actors (including yourself).

How to heal from traumas of the soul?

Characteristics of a rejected person's injury: Awakening trauma: from the moment of conception to one year; with same-sex parent. Does not feel the right to exist.

Mask: fugitive.

Parent: Same gender.

Body: compressed, narrow, fragile, fragmented.

Eyes: small, with an expression of fear; impression of a mask around the eyes.

Dictionary: "nothing", "no one", "does not exist", "disappear", "I'm sick of...".

Character: Detachment from the material. The pursuit of excellence. Intelligence. Transitions through stages of great love to periods of deep hatred. He does not believe in his right to exist.

Sexual difficulties. He considers himself useless, worthless. Strives for privacy. Stewed. Knows how to be invisible. Finds a variety of ways to escape. It is easy to go to the astral plane. He thinks he is not understood. Can't let her inner child live in peace.

Most afraid of: panic.

Food: Appetite often disappears due to the influx of emotions or fear. Eats small portions. Sugar, alcohol and drugs as escape routes. predisposition to anorexia.

Typical diseases: Skin, diarrhea, arrhythmia, respiratory dysfunction, allergies, vomiting, fainting, coma, hypoglycemia, diabetes, depression, suicidal tendencies, psychosis.

Runaway Diseases:

Among other diseases characteristic of the fugitive, we also see disorders respiratory functions, especially during a panic.

The fugitive is exposed allergies- this is a reflection of the rejection that he has experienced or is experiencing in relation to certain foods or substances.

Dizziness or fainting- also suitable means if you really want to avoid a situation or a person.

In serious cases, the fugitive is saved coma.

A fugitive suffering agoraphobia, uses this disorder when he wants to avoid certain situations and people that can cause him to panic (more on this behavioral disorder in Chapter 3).

If a fugitive abuses sugar, he can provoke pancreatic diseases such as hypoglycemia or diabetes.

The danger of such a deviation in behavior is that over time it can turn into psychosis.

The structure of the schizoid character.

Description

The term schizoid describes a person whose sense of self is diminished, whose ego is weak and whose contact with the body and with the senses is severely weakened.

Bioenergetic conditions

Thus, protection is problematic. In the waist area there is an energy splitting of the body, and as a result of this - the disintegration of the integrity of the upper and lower halves of the body. Bioenergetic analysis is shown in the diagram.

Physical aspects

In most cases, patients with these features have a narrow and constricted body. Where there are paranoid elements in the personality, the body is fuller and more athletic.

The face is mask-like. The eyes, although not empty, as in schizophrenia, are lifeless and do not make contact. The arms hang, more like extensions than extensions of the body. Feet tense and cold; they are often everted; body weight is transferred to the outside of the foot.

There is often a noticeable disparity between the two halves of the body. In many cases, they do not appear to belong to the same person.

For example, under stress, when a person assumes an arc position, the line of his body often seems to be broken. The head, torso and legs are often at an angle to each other.

Psychological ratios

In the schizoid character, hypersensitivity is found due to a weak ego boundary, which is a psychological counterpart of a lack of peripheral charge. This weakness reduces the ego's resistance to external pressure and forces it into self-defence.

Such people avoid close, sensual relationships. In fact, it is very difficult for them to establish such relationships because of the lack of energy in the peripheral structures.

The desire to always motivate actions gives schizoid behavior a shade of insincerity. This has been called “as if” behavior, i.e. it seems to be based on feelings, but the actions themselves are not an expression of feelings.

Etiological and historical factors

Here it seems important to give some data on the origin of this structure. These are the summarized observations of those who have studied this problem, treated and analyzed patients with such disorders.

In all cases, there is clear evidence that patients were rejected by their mother at an early age, and this was perceived by them as an existential threat. The rejection was accompanied by covert and often overt hostility on her part.

Rejection and hostility have developed in the patient the fear that any attempts at contact, demands or self-assertion will lead to the destruction of himself.

From childhood comes a lack of any strong positive feelings of security or joy, frequent nightmares.

Typical for such patients is both isolated and unemotional behavior with occasional outbursts of rage, which is called autistic.

If either parent intervened repeatedly in the child's life during the oedipal period (for example, for sexual reasons), which is very common, then a paranoid element was added to the main symptom. This made possible some activity at the end of childhood or in adulthood.

In all this, the child has no choice but to separate himself from reality (intense imagination life) and from his body (abstract mind) in order to survive. Due to the fact that his main feelings were horror and deadly rage, the child was fenced off from all feelings by self-defense. By voice:

The fugitive has a weak, powerless voice.

Dance style:

The fugitive doesn't like dancing. If he dances, then his movements are minimal and inexpressive, he does not want to be noticed. It seems to say on it: "Do not look at me for a long time."

Vehicle selection:

· The fugitive likes inconspicuous cars of a soft color.

Sitting posture:

· The fugitive shrinks, trying to take up as little space as possible in the chair. He likes to tuck his legs under him very much: when he is not connected to the ground, it is easier to run away.

Fears:

· The fugitive is most afraid of panic. He can't really realize it because he hides, disappears as soon as he starts to panic, or even before it starts. Others see panic without difficulty - his eyes almost always betray him.

Injuries by gender:

Injury Healing:

your injury rejected close to healing if you gradually take up more and more space, if you begin to assert yourself. And if someone pretends that you are not there, it does not unsettle you. There are fewer and fewer situations in which you are afraid to panic.

Characteristics of injury

REJECTED

Injury "rejected" - mask "fugitive"

Injury of the rejected (fugitive physique)

Characteristics of injury

Injury "left" - mask "addict"

Abandoned Trauma (Physique Addict)

Characteristics of injury

Injury "humiliated" - mask "masochist"

Humiliated Trauma (Masochist physique)

Characteristics of injury

Injury "betrayed" - mask "controlling"

Devotee trauma (controller's physique)

Characteristics of injury

Injury "were unfair" - mask "rigid (hard)"

Injury of injustice (rigid physique)

Characteristics of injury

Healing Paths

I would like to recall one parable about how the souls agreed on the upcoming life lesson.

Characteristics of a rejected person's injury:
Awakening trauma: from the moment of conception to one year; with same-sex parent. Does not feel the right to exist.

In all this, the child has no choice but to separate himself from reality (intense imagination life) and from his body (abstract mind) in order to survive. Due to the fact that his main feelings were horror and deadly rage, the child was fenced off from all feelings by self-defense.
By voice: